Today was an ok day.  I kind of had a racy heart on my way to work.  But it calmed down after a few hours.  I talked to the nurse today for about 45 minutes about my headaches and lack of sleep.  She is supposed to get back to me after she talks to the adjuster.  I also received a text from Teaon regarding the replacement of the blinds in the front room.  I hate when she sends me stuff at work because it always makes me feel some sort of way.  So I had to just ignore the message so that I could remain calm.  I got a call and an email from Heather who is the recruiter at Chase.  I am hoping when we talk she has something good for me.  I got an email from Schwallie regarding why I was passed over for that position that was given to Mayra.  We shall see how that plays out.  I also came home and worked on one of the earring organizers that was ordered.  I will post pictures once it is done.  That is about all that I have to report at this moment.  But I am sure I will have more tomorrow since that is when Mayra returns to work.  I really want to be cordial but I feel really betrayed and once you are on my bad side it is hard to be forgiven.  Which brings me to one last thing.  I noticed that Misy didn't invite me to Koby's bday party but she invited Teaon. I find that to be a little shady but whatever.  I have moves to make that don't include everyone else.  

The Robbery Aftermath

So on Friday the 15h of September I went to see my therapist.  I was urged to see one after I was robbed at work a week before my birthday.  The robbery happened at 16:28 on 8/11/17.   The weekend of my actual birthday Teaon decided to go back to Colorado and not be a part of my birthday.  And Khiya came thru like a champ like always.  But what really set the tone for the weekend was the fact that NoNo came and took me to a concert to see Jidenna at Cresent Ballroom on 8/17/17 which was a Thursday.  That Friday Khiya arranged for me to have a belly dance class at the Seatay Dance school.  That was a little after we had brunch at the Breakfast Club downtown.  The only people to show were NoNo, Katt and Honey for the belly dance class.  Then on that Saturday Khiya had me go to the movies for the day which I saw War for the Planet of the Apes.  I didn't know that she was at home getting ready for a surprise pool party.  But she had me come home when no one showed up.  I asked her to cancel and then a few people decided to show only 4 hours after the scheduled start time.  The only ones to show were Katt, Honey, Ludy and Misy.  And basically no one swam but they ate and left.  Needless to say that will never happen again.  So I have had all this negative energy going on and I am really at the end of my rope.  Fast forward to the 24th of August.  I had my first therapy appointment which went well.  The place is really comfortable and the doctor is really nice.  One the 25th of August I drove to L.A to be with my sister Kendal .  That weekend was so much fun and stress free.  We went to the Greek Theater to see Mary J. Blige in concert for the Strength of a Woman tour.  That was on 8/26/17.  On 8/27/17 I drove to Palm Springs to see my dad for his birthday.  And the day after I came back home.  And of course the drama was waiting for me.  I returned back to work on 9/5/17.  One thing I forgot to mention is that I was pushed into go to therapy after I decided to take an extra day of vacation after I found out that Trump would be a block away holding a rally.  So to get back on track I got back to work and I was trying to keep up with everything going on including the position that I applied for.  I went to the therapist like I said on the 15th and I was a total reck.  Because the position I had been trying to get since last year was given to none other than Mayra.  So to say I have been having nothing but negativity come my way would be an understatement.  Now my mother came to visit on 9/13/17 and she stayed until 9/17/17 and she got to see a glimpse of the shit I deal with on a day to day basis with Teaon.  I worked less than a half day on the 13th.  I called in on the 14th and the 15th I went in and I found out about Mayra.  I have been having massive headaches.  I can not sleep for shit and to add to that my daughter is too much.  Orion broke one of my blinds and of course I was pissed about it.  So when I stepped into the bathroom I can hear Teaon and my mom talking and my mom is trying to explain to Teaon how she raised 6 kids and how we didn't tear up shit and Teaon is making up excuses as always instead of taking responsibility for what happened.  Then she has the nerve to say that everyone babies me and that I want people to buy me stuff and that she can't always watch Orion and we don't help and that she can't just keep him in the room.  But she stays in her room on the phone while he runs about the house and is into everything.  No mater how much I try to bond and make things work.  I know it never will because she lives in some fantasy world with expectations that are very unrealistic for our situation.  I think she feels she is a Kardashian and she is entitled.  So here we are again at a point where we are not talking and of course I have to go back to work in the morning to the bullshit.  Please Jesus Fix It!